In attempting to be nothing; I am everything.
In dropping my grasp at control; I flow with every situation.
As I cease to classify my world, I become infinite.
I stop looking, and start to see in all directions at once.
I stop listening and hear all of my environment.
I am finally becoming who I always have been.
My daily experience of human being is once again notably different than it was last time I posted. I’ll try to recap what’s happened in the past month.
-Totaled my car and had a mild spiritual awakening within the same 5 seconds. Became markedly more conscious of the degree to which I control my internal and external reality.
-Fears melt away with each passing day.
-No one can stop my growth. I am practicing my capability to hold multiple potentials in sight simultaneously for extended periods. I’m fighting metaphysical tunnel vision.
- Awoke from sleep feeling the structure of my heart. *not my cardiovascular pump* It felt like dancing magnetism. Like polarities weaving in and out of each other.
- have a second job as a cook at an egyptian cafe.
- Am on my way to emotional independence. I feel I need no one and yet am drawn to some.
-I don’t believe I fear death. I don’t fear the thoughts of others. I am comfortable with all judgements of my character, because if they can see anything about me I have not seen about myself then I am in gratitude to the severity of their observational powers.
- You enter this world with nothing, and leave with nothing. I see no reason to hord objects.
-I’m working toward a motorcycle for the summer… It’s a lot of work.
-I’ve started to have mildly prophetic dreams. Dreams that depict scenarios that I would never possibly be able to logically predict.
I’m extremely aware of my energy at all times. I see how my projections interact with the external phenomenal matrix.
The depth of lovelight is boundless. With a flood of gnowing, past-present-future merge momentarily in the forground becoming Alltime. So I keep driving my car down the highway.
Todays Workout: Fran
I set a PR, but it still needs work.
Supersets of 21-15-9
Completed in 5:58. Didn’t feel too bad afterward. Lots of yelling in the middle though.
Were you paying attention? Or were you looking at the lady in the red dress?
My world is crashing down around me. I’m functioning is some sort of state approximating mildly functional hysteria. I love it all.
Today’s workout: Tabata
5 rounds each lasting a total of 4 minutes. Each round split into sections of 20 seconds of maximum effort and 10 seconds of rest alternating back and forth for the duration of the round. 1 minute of rest in between each round.
Rounds as follows:
#1- squats ( just used a 30lb dumbell. max rep was 25, min was 15)
#2 pullups (first round 27reps. seconds 12 reps. third 9 reps. last 7 reps. went downhill quickly)
#3 situps ( this was pretty hillarious. Started fast and my trainer told me to slow down and level out my workload, so I sped up. first round approx 45 crunches in 20 seconds. second 25 crunches. third 15 and maintained that through finish.)
#4 pushups (first round 15. second 9. maintained 7 per round through finish)
#5 burpies (9 first round. 7 second. 5 each round following this. Last round did burpies out the side door and threw up, then lay on the pavement and let the snow fall on me for about 15 minutes before crawling inside.)